FUCK!!
i'm down with china virus again~ =(
Sians~ at last im back in school again.... holiday seems like oni one week ago..
Nvm~ anyway... it was real lucky i met i met meiyun on tues in the library, when i was ready to get my blardy china filled virus com a fresh new brain.. though yall may think its kind of a "sway" thing... but surprisingly... her fren beside her was a virus cleaner~ cool la.. he's cool.. whao, its rather surprising meiyun got such cool fren~ anyway, he solved my viruses la.. which according to him was sibei jialat.. yea, so it made my day rather happy la.. dun have to format my com and configure everything from scratch.. and so, companied suwen down to Guthrie House... i guess not many of u may noe.. cos even the fucking taxi driver oso dunno where the hell it is.. so we walked and walked..... and walked of cos.. for her interview... while i waited outside... sofa was soft, air con was cooling.. naturally i fell aslp~ =P but her voice so loud i from outside oso can hear la.. Lastly, this is the climax of the story liao.. went for the IMF fireworks~ met lotsa frens over there, one after another. seems like im getting famous~ waited and waited and waited..... and waited of cos. Getting kinda impatient, nose was blocked and im sniffing that menthol stick like a drug addict / tooooooooooooooons of mats and minahs filled the whole marina square / couldnt get anywhere else / yea... more or less like that... got me really frustrated... Ahhh, at last the mc from inside counted down... and POOM went up the colourful display of brightly burnt magnesiums.. everyone was enjoying the fireworks, including me.. of cos.. until a trio of pui chee's ran and stopped behind me... im ok with them being fat, but once they started ranting like pigs beside me~ it relli gets me all fired up.. this is their conversation... 'Dialouge is translated to English' Bui chee 1 : "*pants, pants*, wa lucky ar, we're just in time... wa! WA!! wa!! this one nice.. wa~~" at this point of time, im still rather ok with it.. its natural~ then.... Bui Chee 2 : "what welcome to Singapore? last day of IMF liao then come and welcome, should be goodbye what~ " Bui Chee 3 : " ya lo ya lo.. y har... crazy one... eh eh, they are using our money for these fireworks leh... wa, bomb our money.." Bui Chee 1 : "ya lo, i was eating ice cream leh, then suddenly boom boom, i tot got war.. anyway la.. if my *whoever* propose to me using fireworks, i'll sure be very happy one~ " YES, try appreciating the fireworks while at the same time trying not to listen to those freaks talk which was not more than 20cm away from me.. damn... its helluva irritating... i juz wanna turn round and give them a blardy slap into their fatty cheeks... but better not la.. later my hands filled with oil... MAJOR TURN OFF.... damn those twats... wonder how fun its gonna be like if im out with the gang while these Bui chee tok non stop... geez... can't even let me enjoy a short 7mins fireworks... Singaporeans are relli crap.. well, some of them relli are~
OK!! its time to blog!!
YES! after so long into the holidays, finally as a "gang" we met up... cos the class is damn buey on ones~~ wa lau eh... mostly everyone oso got class chalet and class outing, ours is "gang" outing. but its good la, class too many stupid ppl.. so at least, we had our BBQ. with the clan. supposed to have others. but they didnt turn up. good. more $ to ourselves. Then so boring... so as usual we played the stupid truth or dare... i got no truths la.. so i tio dare... my dare wasnt relli a dare... so easy one~ juz go opposite ask some stupid idiot to drink my bombay... then tt guy oso dumb, give him abit liao stil call me add abit more.. then he hollan lo~ stupid! next is hero yen kai... siao one, keep drinking non stop... drink until drank until drunk.. tok alot of cock... one big lan jiao kah... hahahahahaha.. followed by yaohong then adley, all lan jiao ka!! LAN JIAO KAH!!!! useless fools, drink liao slp.. buey gan~ =P so i go bathe with ck... bathe naked in ecp.. WOHOOOOOOOO! pity no girls ard... =P then go fishing, nite fishing... with a lousy rosak rod.. less than half hour we fuck off from that rock liao.. go slp~ Ck snored damn loud.. until i damn bth~ relli bth... whole nite i feeding mosquitos.. then go peek inside tent, lucky yaohong wake up liao... i go inside and rest... till 7 30, until the lan jiao kah wake up.. wake up liao still seh... still wan sun tan when the rain is comin liao... taxi home was the best moment... i feel home... after going thru a nite of oesophagus burning... yes, from all the bombays... BOMBAY KILLS! If you drink, dun sleep~ DRINK LIAO SLEEP = LAN JIAO KAH!!!
This is so humiliating, this is so demoralising... FUCK! Right on this blardy tuesday, i bled my virgin blood on the ring.. yes, my virgin blood.... from my mouth dammit!
nah beh, i dunno wtf joy is donig, make me team up with a fucking ang mo TWICE my size!! i really mean twice, he's damn huge though not very muscular, he's huge! Aiya, so nvm lo... i juz fight lo.. but i was really shag at that time already, i dun understand why sparring muz always be at the end of training when everyone is so blardy tired already then call us go fight. Somemore i fighting this big bull, fucking hell. i tell you.. i'm like a monkey running away from a rhino. No matter how, no matter what, i still smack him as much as i can.. not many ppl can remember what they did, same goes for me.. all in my mind was to smack his knee, smack smack, smack.... cos thats his weakest spot.. he's fucking slow, but his blows are fucking heavy.. i tell u, really heavy. And i think i angered him quite a little with all my low kicks.. i think he got very dulan and he chased me around the ring, from my vision i could see him chasing me as well as ppl watching and getting outta the way.. this is when it really gets scary.. POOM!!! one fucking punch went up my jaw... bursting my upper lip open... well, not to the extent that burst open... but it was helluva cut right there.. nah beh i tell u, dun fool around with punches.. i got a feeling i will fall flat onto the ring.. nah beh cheebye!!!!! i hate the feeling, its damn dizzy and giddy.. can literally see stars.. and the sound in ur ears ringing in very sharp high pitch~ "eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" i could hear nothing else.. Pain was all i felt, besides that was humiliation.. its not really nice being stung in the face like that... felt stupid.. but my frens there did supported me.. hahahaha.. like ah john he say : " wa, u fierce, u damn eh kan.. to me u win already" hahaha, it was nothing to me, it wasn't enuff to cleanse the guilt and humiliation in me. Though it was just a simple sparring session, i put in my all.. i gave him all my shots~ all my punches and kicks.. though he stung my jaw with one punch, i hope i gave him a helluva good time on his knee.. See whether i'll get the chance to fight him again next week, i might not be that strong and powerful to break his knee, but i'll make sure i'll make it swollen~ yes, if not i'll be sorry to myself. one more thing, i'm hell gonna kick that fucking huge belly of him.. so irritating, but on 2nd tot might not... cos..... i'm going in for his head already! =P nah beh, im bruised all over... time for some R & R... phew~
I really dunno how, i really dunno why... i suddenly missed this very important person so much.. well, it isnt strange at all as he's the very person that inspired me and made me wanna change for the better. =) He's not anyone close to me.. He's Neivelle Tan.. I guess not many might know him.. wel, i dun care whether u noe or not.. im gonna share his story with you.. =)
I got to know him as an ordinary guy coming to our weekly assembly, which of cos being a rebellious student at that time didnt give much of a damn. I just wanna skip the blardy school song and get my nap. But little did i know this story is gonna change my life so much. So he started off by saying he used to be a gangster... well which i thought that was nothing wat. wat can he have done? robbed an auntie? killed an opposite gang member? or juz some drug smuggler. No, he was way way way worse than that which really got me h0oked to his story already. i juz wanna see what the hell did he do. i'll juz summarize... He was a notorious gang member, often chasing opposing gang members which are mostly malays. at that time, racial riots were very common and there was once he said, he got caught by malay gang members and was buried right up till his neck for a few days without food and water. Until a few days later where he was spotted. I could also remember clearly that his mother was very very very caring, though he was so bad and notorious, his mother never gave up on him. Even when he's in jail, his mother was still there hoping for him to return one day. But he didnt give a damn, in and out he visits the prison, more than 3/4 of his life was serving jail terms. There was a part where he said when his mom passed away. If i remembered correctly, that was when it really hit him hard.. he seems like he's lost everything. He even tried different ways to commit suicide. he tried to bash into the wall, but the cell was too small for him to run. He tried to swallow soap, but it was too big! He tried to act insane and jumped off the wall of prisons which was 7-9 feet tall if i remembered correctly. He got very desperate i know, until he come across the bible. i shall leave the christianity part out.. i juz remember him saying : " God, take my life and do watever you want with it" yes he said that. I didnt know how this simple assembly could impact me so much. He said : " i'm not here to spread christianity." Most importantly, these are the words he said to me : " this is a story about shame, not success" I then begin to realize all the things that i've done that time which i thought was gungho was stupid and shameful. He's the real great guy that have done lots more henious crimes than me.. I felt insulted and disgusted with myself~ am i fit to be a gangster? Since then, i begin to change day by day. I shall not continue cos many might think im bull shitting already. =) I really miss that guy, suddenly i missed him so much to made me blogged bout him in the middle of the night. Hes a man i really respect. I bought and read his book twice, if yall know its called "Iron Man" that was nick that time. The title already tells everything bout him. Though i miss him, i guess i miss my lil baby more.. =) shes someone really special and different. She's unique..she's another sweet lady that changed me quite alot. im not into mushy stuffs.. so i'll juz stop this entry. =) |
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